Fic Snippet--Diary ???

Sometimes I just want to hunker down and scream until my throat is so raw that blood soothes the inside of my throat.

What I just wrote bothers me deeply. I need to stay sane for the next however many years, and make it till the end, finish, and then I can give up. No rest, no leisure, just finish the job and then I can rest.

But I still want to scream.