October 26th, 2001

unkind, why, fate

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Don't Let Go.

Three words. Three very simple words. Those phrases to other couples mean 'I love you', but not to us. 'Don't let go' means so much more to us.

It means when I am shuddering from the nightmares that aren't mine, but Eric's, not to let go, like *HE* did, so long ago. He didn't need to protect me, just stand there, so I knew somebody knew, if not understood, and was there to lean on.

It means, when he is slowly losing his sanity from *HIS* memories overlaying EJ's, I'm there, whispering words of memories that we hold in tandem. I am there to sooth the ravages of his mind when he strains it too hard to build the wall back again.

We are partners, helpmates--we are not there to everything for the person, but stand ready to help when they ask, or just lend a willing ear to a rant that needs to be said.

Don't Let Go.
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    Pet Shop Boys - What Have I Done To Deserve This (Remix)
unkind, why, fate

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Stef shuddered as she remembered. "We lost the house, and the cars. That wasn't major--we nearly lost Xany. We--the teens and up--have a theory that your memories have lain in our subconscious all our lives, and when certain things happen, certain fears kick in. Chaya fears losing any of her mobility, though she keeps on explaining it away as a physical manifestation of her fears of being trapped by motherhood--utter bullshit of course. Well, when they started sniffing around, trying to find a way to put Xany in foster care, I started having panic attacks, and 'Vieve wasn't too far behind. It took several months to get them off our backs, enough for all of us to heal. We think... SHIT, we KNOW that the reason we both kept freaking was both of you guys' childhood fears of being abandoned again and adult fear of doing the abandoning. It didn't help us any, but we don't blame you."

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Aaagh, why o why can't I get a full scene out of my head?!?
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    La Bouche - Be My Lover (Remix)