November 18th, 2001

unkind, why, fate


"If they made four pairs of clones, where's the fourth pair?"

"Dead." The pain was evident in Carolyn's voice. "All four of us tried to protect the children the best we could; they simply paid with with their death." She sobbed, "They were due to be married a week from the day Essex captured them." Sobs quieted, "CJ tried too many times to break through the bars and the electric simply overloaded him. We think 'Rica had a bond with him; she died, spasming, not a minute after."

"Why didn't either of you..."

EJ broke in, "We decided to both try different styles of fighting back--"

"Basically amounting to getting his confidence by portraying ourselves as self-opportunists, mercenaries of the worst type... to take advantage of his trust. I still feel as if the dirt won't wash off, no matter how hard I scrub--" she glared at EJ, "Yeah, yeah, I know we were the only ones capable of pulling it off, doesn't negate what we did; so 'Rica and CJ settled on openly rebellious. Which I would have preferred to help with, but Mister Subversive here convinced me otherwise."
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unkind, why, fate


Most of the times I get into a specific fandom there is a specific character or specific characters that I just grab a hold of, and don't let go of. And usually it's a very specific type of personality, and a very specific view of that character. Examples:

Eric Lensherr (Marvel) - was in the concentration camps, was Xavier's lover, screwed over most of his life, strong within and out, but still very hurt.

Jubilation Lee (Marvel) she hides behind the jester mask, but she can kick ass when needed. Most times she doesn't need to, so she doesn't. Stronger than most know, because she doesn't want them to know.

Most of the GW boys, but specifically...

Duo Maxwell (Gundam Wing) - Same as Jubes, she has the jester mask, but nobody calls themselves Shinigami -- God of Death -- without deep seated reasons.

This says something about me, and I'm not exactly sure.
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    Backstreet Boys - We've Got It Going On
unkind, why, fate

Fighting Back

I keep fighting back.

I no longer know why. The reasons have faded into the background. I only remember the moves: slash and hack are out, move with speed if you have the energy, have power in your swings--you want to cut, not bruise. Fight. Fight.


All I know is I die if I stop; I guess that is reason enough to fight. I just wish I knew why.
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    Britney Spears - You Drive Me Crazy (Stop Remix)