I didn't get invited back to any of the remaining twelve houses.
When Jackie, my Rho Chi, told me this, I was simply shocked--the mild kind, not the type that goes for serious accidents or unexpected death. And now, nearly twelve hours later, I'm still trying to figure out what I feel. I don't really feel bad, but is that because I still have a chance at Alpha Xi Delta and at the engineering sorority, Phi Sigma Rho? Or did I not truly want to be a part of the greek system? Did none of the houses really call out to me?
Maybe it's because I'm going to have a full plate anyway, with a double major in Eng. Maybe because I plan on working out and watching my diet. Or because I said I was planning on joining two, possible three clubs.
I may just be not the type of girl that they want as their sister. I will not change my basic personality; I will tweak the facets, but I am content with what I am right now, as long as I continue to grow within myself. I do well within groups, but I like being an observor, or at least am more comfortable within that role, while sometimes wishing to be the center of attention.
I like to think I will find my niche, somehow. My floormates and Rho Chi group like me, so I know that I will find friends.
Where will the next four or five years take me?